Ralph Waldo Emerson said it best - "What lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us. And when we bring what is within us out into the world, miracles happen."
What lies behind us
I've lived a good past, but my past 24 years haven't been perfect. Mind you, my definition of 'success' and 'failure' is very well different from the next person. What I may view as a failure is a misstep to some people and what I may view as a success could be merely the next step for someone else. I've done a lot of things I have been proud of (graduating college and graduate school, buying a condo, achieving career success) and lots of things I am not happy about (failure to start my own business, not yet writing a book, lack of good ideas, indecisiveness on future career path, mistreating people down the road).
What lies before us
I have time, but not a lot. I'm turning 25 this month and the looming quarter century birthday is enough to scare the wits out of me. I want a family down the road and I don't want to burden them with my intrinsic questions about life and what I want out of it. Now is the period between knowing what I want and doing what I want and I have to accomplish whatever that 'want' is starting now.
What lies within us
What is it that I want? That's the question. I don't mind hard work, I can handle sacrifice, but what I can't handle is not knowing the end goal and what it is I'm seeking. This mostly ties to my career, but can be used within all facets of my life - what kind of journey am I seeking (what do I want)? Will it work with a family? Will it provide the lifestyle that I want? Will it provide the self satisfaction that I crave? What if I embark on this journey and decide this, too, isn't the right path for me? What if I fail? I'd like to partly blame my quarter life crisis on this internal self examination, but I've been struggling with this for a while.
I've decided to write this blog to not only put thoughts on paper, but to receive feedback, advice and constructive criticism from my readers. As a self-therapy, I've decided to throw all my struggles, emotions, thoughts, and success into the websophere as a self-cleansing. Already, I feel like a weight has lifted off of my shoulders.
I know that what is inside of me is nothing compared to what I've done in the past and what I will do in the future. I know if I follow what's inside, miracles will happen...I just have to find that 'what's inside'.
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